In my perfect little world, I was sending out adoption/thank you/Christmas cards this year. They are all addressed. Since the decline of our referral in October, I’ve realized that they will not be sent until 2011. Another year when I don’t have the heart to send out Christmas cards. One of our family members is missing! How can I send incomplete family pictures? I cannot. And that is the end of that. I might do an email update for curious minds and those whom we only correspond with at the time of Jesus’ birthday celebration. Then again, I’m sure many would be thrilled to get a Christmas card that is a few months late…. that is complete.
This morning, while whipping up Grandma’s Swedish pancakes, I put in the first Christmas CDs of the season. Not a child came downstairs that did not comment on the yule tide tunes…. and we had two extra childs too. :o) BUT, then Third Day’s song came on…. Merry Christmas. The lyrics came dribbling out of the stereo of another Christmas when your child is not home. Good grief. This is not GOOD grief…. this is SAD grief! Talk about killing me softly with his song!
Staying positive is my goal this holiday season. But, for heaven’s sake, this is the FOURTH Thanksgiving and Christmas without our baby girl. My only hope is that we get the referral before Christmas and I can hang her Precious Moments First Christmas ornament on the tree because I’ll know her birth year! Oh please, oh please.
On Saturday in a hearty attempt at garage saling with my husband… I did find another Groovy Girl doll for my little girl. It’s the little joys that keep me going right now.