If you have followed our eternal adoption saga, you know that I’m a tad sad today. November 3rd is the last day of the year 2009 that a referral call can be received from Bogota… and your child can be home by Christmas. Our call did not come today. This will be Christmas #3 without our baby girl looking wide-eyed at her first glistening Christmas tree, or having a family to gather with and sing carols in a strange language, or making Sugar cookies in the shapes of stars, candy canes and snowmen with sprinkles. I don’t know if I can stand to put the baby ornaments on the tree this year.
When I think of the life Zaza is most likely living right now… down in Colombia… it makes my heart sad. We pray for her every single day to be cared for, warm, fed and loved. I know it will be the shock of her life to leave all that is familiar to her… food, weather, friends, home, caretakers, clothes, smells, Spanish, songs and games. I’m glad that we stay in Colombia for a month to get used to each other in her surroundings. But I honestly cannot wait to shower her in love and kisses. To bring her to her own home and show Zaza her darling yellow room with the purple bed. Her very own room! With butterflies, dragonflies, flowers and the sun painted in bright colors and glitter dancing around the tops of her walls. Her own curvy mirror to look in, comb her black hair that is just like her daddy’s and admire her beautiful clothes. I can’t wait to hear squealing in our home again, high-pitched laughter and giggling. We haven’t had princess tea parties in many years around here. And dancing. Yes, we will dance with Zaza.
We started a unit with the boys today on patience and plant growth. As I read the definition “patience is waiting without complaining” I realized why God planned for us to start the unit today… Nov. 3rd. I plan my homeschool year in early June, when I wasn’t aware of the Nov. 3rd cut off date. And of course it would be patience out of all the character traits that it could be. HE knew! So we planted grass and flowers and herbs and vegetables today. Of course I thought of doing all this with Zaza by my side making a mess next year. I pray she loves gardening even half as much as I do. We’ll have great fun together with the dirt, water, seeds and rocks. I’ve been eyeing the little gardening gloves, rubber boots and color coordinated kid-sized garden tools at JoAnns. I LOVE those! A must have.
The courts in Bogota are closed from Dec. 15 to Jan. 15th, so there will be no action at all until after that. {sigh} The good news of Nov. 3rd being over is that the holidays are spent focussing on the family that is here, the few years we have left together, and making memories that will last.
I read the book A Seed is a Promise today…. and it is, whether it is an actual plant seed, or the seed of a child born in your heart. It is a promise. A promise that will come true… if we have patience (and wait without complaining!)
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